Life is short, you'd think you have time to spare but you don't. Famous poets write about how to live life to the fullest with lines like "Love your heart out while it still allows you!" and "Experience and enjoy youth while you can!".
Its true everyone wants to live just a happy life! Loving things simple and uncomplicated. Clearly, this contradicts every single point and message those famous fools have been trying to trick us into believing. Because living and loving someone isn't simple, and never easy.
We naturally crave for joy, love, attention and everything beautiful as human beings. Who could blame us for wanting to live a perfect life? Wanting all the time to feel appreciated, to feel cared for, to feel trusted, to feel important to the people we love.
But what happens when you realise, no, we're not as important as we thought we are to them? What happens when they keep reminding you of the hardship that is about to come such as no we can't see each other for some time, or contact each other as often? What happens if you initially expected that the sacrifice you will make with the commitment with him is more than you can actually cope with? What happens when he chooses them over you, when all this while he promised that you meant the most to him?
Is everyone in this world seriously as important as you think they are? Would it kill them or kill you to deny them of what they want from you so you could make the person who is supposed to be more important to you happy?? If it means sacrificing time with me to please your mum, i understand and i accept because your mum is family and is top of your "important people list".
You always say your family accuses you for being unhelpful and unproductive. You sacrificed time with me because your mum was unhappy that you were going out and spending a lot all the time. But yet, you still continue with your active lifestyle pleasing all your friends and spending all that money and time.
Because of them, you are stuck with too many difficult decisions and hard choices to make that you're not sure how to manage. If already knowing that, why did you want me in the picture to add to all that burden and hardship?? Especially when you already have so much to deal with? Why do you need me when you can just continue to lead your life surrounded by the people who are ALL important to you and that can accompany you and make you happy? That, i really don't understand.
I have never asked you to choose between them and me, because i know it will put you in a difficult position. But if you could be equally happy with them, why do you need me around? You said before the happy with them is different as the happy with me. But i guess its just not different enough for you to sacrifice more going out time with them, just so you could spend a day with me and not get scolding from your mum for it.
How you manage so many things in the past i am not sure. But when you say everything is important, you're just denying the fact that sacrificing for the people who means to you most is more important than the rest.
Think about it, and explain to me why is that i am always feeling like a plan B? Always feeling abandoned when you're living your busy life while i'm just waiting for your return? If not just fitting into that schedule because there's just some spare time left there?
I am not married. I can go and stay whenever and wherever i wish, and do whatever that makes me happy too. Why do i have to always be the after-thought in your life, when i can be FIRST in my own? Because I am most important to me, my family, you and my best friends are 2nd and other friends are 3rd.
Whereas you are most important for yourself, 2nd your family, and i have to share third place with all your other important friends as well as everyone else you know, because ALL of them are extremely important in your life. To you, i am that special, i am that important, and i am that different.
Its true everyone wants to live just a happy life! Loving things simple and uncomplicated. Clearly, this contradicts every single point and message those famous fools have been trying to trick us into believing. Because living and loving someone isn't simple, and never easy.
We naturally crave for joy, love, attention and everything beautiful as human beings. Who could blame us for wanting to live a perfect life? Wanting all the time to feel appreciated, to feel cared for, to feel trusted, to feel important to the people we love.
But what happens when you realise, no, we're not as important as we thought we are to them? What happens when they keep reminding you of the hardship that is about to come such as no we can't see each other for some time, or contact each other as often? What happens if you initially expected that the sacrifice you will make with the commitment with him is more than you can actually cope with? What happens when he chooses them over you, when all this while he promised that you meant the most to him?
Is everyone in this world seriously as important as you think they are? Would it kill them or kill you to deny them of what they want from you so you could make the person who is supposed to be more important to you happy?? If it means sacrificing time with me to please your mum, i understand and i accept because your mum is family and is top of your "important people list".
You always say your family accuses you for being unhelpful and unproductive. You sacrificed time with me because your mum was unhappy that you were going out and spending a lot all the time. But yet, you still continue with your active lifestyle pleasing all your friends and spending all that money and time.
Because of them, you are stuck with too many difficult decisions and hard choices to make that you're not sure how to manage. If already knowing that, why did you want me in the picture to add to all that burden and hardship?? Especially when you already have so much to deal with? Why do you need me when you can just continue to lead your life surrounded by the people who are ALL important to you and that can accompany you and make you happy? That, i really don't understand.
I have never asked you to choose between them and me, because i know it will put you in a difficult position. But if you could be equally happy with them, why do you need me around? You said before the happy with them is different as the happy with me. But i guess its just not different enough for you to sacrifice more going out time with them, just so you could spend a day with me and not get scolding from your mum for it.
How you manage so many things in the past i am not sure. But when you say everything is important, you're just denying the fact that sacrificing for the people who means to you most is more important than the rest.
Think about it, and explain to me why is that i am always feeling like a plan B? Always feeling abandoned when you're living your busy life while i'm just waiting for your return? If not just fitting into that schedule because there's just some spare time left there?
I am not married. I can go and stay whenever and wherever i wish, and do whatever that makes me happy too. Why do i have to always be the after-thought in your life, when i can be FIRST in my own? Because I am most important to me, my family, you and my best friends are 2nd and other friends are 3rd.
Whereas you are most important for yourself, 2nd your family, and i have to share third place with all your other important friends as well as everyone else you know, because ALL of them are extremely important in your life. To you, i am that special, i am that important, and i am that different.
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