첫사랑이죠

Fate is an unusual thing.
Its destiny that people meet each other and become friends.
Its a miracle that friends develop into important individuals to one another,
And eventually, with a little magic, two people become lovers. : )
Ahh... The beauty of two fates intertwined. ^_^

Its been exactly a year...
Alot has happened in between...
And as i think back on this time,
especially now that i have recovered,
That there are many things i feel truly proud and grateful of. : ]

Although our paths have become divided,
And due to awkwardness and complication,
we cannot go back to being normal friends,
I am proud to say that, I have found back
My happy self!! :3


I am happy that i can think back about us and feel no more pain...
I am happy that i can listen to the songs you sang to me before and not feel sad...
I am happy that i can look at our past and smile and remember only the joy...
I am happy that once upon a time, you showed me that i was capable of being loved,
No matter how complicated or stubborn i was... :P
I am happy that for once, i was able to feel and share love
with someone who loved me back...
These are the things i feel very proud to have and own. : )

Looking back, i do feel so very touched for the care you've shown me...
I remember clearly first time somebody ever cleaned my fork and spoon before starting a meal...
I remember it was the first time somebody taught me how to eat two of my favourite food TOGETHER (although it was a weird combo, but it tasted DOPE!! :D)...
I remember the first time somebody ever held my hand, and i was excited about the adventure that was about to happen next, eventhough it was only a stroll in the shopping mall... XD
I remember the first time somebody ever piggied-back me for such a long distance, that i felt embarrassed and regretted i had such a heavy dinner before... :S
I remember the first time somebody ever sang to me, and sang only for me...
Ahhhh.... All these were wonderful memories that i would keep forever in my treasure chest... ^_^

I just wanted to thank God for blessing me...
For teaching me to love which brought me so much joy...
For letting me feel special and cared about during that time...
I am eternally grateful... : ]

Without this, i would not be as strong and mindful as i am now...
I hope that next year this time,
I would not consciously remember this date anymore...
Yet, become more appreciative of whoever and whatever that is in my life...
Always treasuring each moment as it passes,
Not taking for granted it will always be there...
And always remembering all the good that others have done for me. ^_^
Amen.

*~}i{~*

P/s : Coincidental enough, Supermoon occured today since 18 years!! Coincidental enough, today is a Saturday again!! Oh well. : )

Saturday, March 19, 2011 at 8:45 AM , 1 Comment

My Inspiration

Every time i hear that song, i think of you.
I could keep replaying it over and over again,
eventhough i can't quite understand the lyrics. :S

In a fraction of a minute,
Memories of the time we had spent together would flash before my eyes.
Although it was just for a short while before you graduated,
But still, that period meant a lot to me, and i miss it sooo. :'')

How out of everyone,
Only you saw me for Me...

How you never judged me for my wrong but instead,
Shared with me your own experience
which lead me to consider another's perspective.

How you could make a dull, tired, long day
A short, eventful and meaningful one!! :D

I still haven't met anybody who could do this as natural as you...
You made everyone around you feel good about themselves...
That is something i really have and is still learning to do... ^_^

I guess you could be considered as a rare type of person...
Constantly sunny and full of pleasant surprises...
It makes me smile even now just thinking about
all the silly things we've done together...
It was the first time somebody came between odds,
And let me feel safe and warm...
Even after so many years, i still remember that day clearly... : )

How i wished i could have told you before...
Thanked you for all the times i desperately needed a friend,
Needed comfort and patient advice...
I guess it'll always be too late for that...
But i do believe you'll always be in my heart,
Forever respected, forever admired...
Forever my Biggie then.


*~}i{~*

Friday, March 11, 2011 at 6:43 AM , 1 Comment