Many people hold themselves back because of fear.And no matter how many times an opportunity knocks on their door,They turn around and walk away, tail between their legs.This has taught me that fear is my greatest enemy.Being always the excuse for slacking...Always the cause of blame and low self esteem...Why does it affect people so much?? Recently I watched Green Lantern with a good friend!!It was an inspiring movie!!I learned that WILL can overcome FEAR.Thinking about it, its true!!Fear paralyzes a person from embracing his true potential!!No matter how talented the person may be, In the presence of fear, they perform less well.Whereas WILL...Its such an amazing word!!Will speaks hope!! Speaks belief!!Will speaks from the heart...The inner desire and passion that drives people to achieve what they set themselves out to do!!And WILL is what I have now.I have set out on my journey...Taken my first step...Breathing in all that will and suppressing all the fear.I have begun striving towards my mission!!I am most determined to succeed!!!! Let time reveal my results!!Because nothing can stop me from reaching my dreams!!The world better watch out!!Because this tiny soul here is about to make a mark.May God be with me every step of the way!!Never allowing me to fall into temptation!! Be brave Shann!! All will prevail!! ^,^W!!*~}i{~*
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Hello summer!! :D Once again, everyone is leaving for their own paths until semester commences in the fall. : ) Fortunately enough, despite the horrible late nights swallowing notes and eating up journals, i am proud to say that i have survived that ordeal once again, and can fully unleash all reserved ecstasy and love for dear summer!! : ] Summer although hot and promising, inevitably brings along with it intensity of separation and anti-socialism. Intrepid of all the idle time that might go to waste but still always elated for the freedom and lazing around that is permissible. XDEven more so, those times of hardship has made me realised how blessed i am to have had a wonderful friend by my side, accompanying me throughout nearly all the time. For all the things you have done, i dedicate this post to you. You know who YOU are. ^_^For every time i nearly died of boredom, thank you for providing me with movies/series galore!! For being the most carefree, trouble-less presence which constantly reminded me to see things more simply. : ]For helping me cook and clean, although mostly for fear i might burn the house down, but still willingly lending me a hand or two when i needed it most. :PFor being so "paternal" to my precious Potato who constantly gifted you with red scratches and tantrums in which you returned with more snacks and more pampering!! x3For being the eyes at night for this day bat who could barely drive in the dark with severe astigmatism vision!! I am glad to have such an efficient Ah-Mat who is always so willing to take the wheel when i am either lazy or blind. X]For all the things i never ask you to do like wiping my car or fetching a plaster for me when i self mutilated my own finger, being my careless blur self!! @,@ For constantly nagging and jabbering in my ear to resume self control when playing tetris battle!! Reminding me to stay focus on whats important such as preparations for exams. I swear, if it wasn't for the fact that you were there with me camping out in the library/tcr till late, i wouldn't have been able to survive the nearing end of the study weeks commencing the start of exams!! >,< For all of the above and MORE, from the wee bottom of my pumping heart,
THANK YOU for EVERYTHING. :'')
With you accompanying me, i did not feel abandoned or lonely...Nor did i have to hide any true part of me in which you accepted with much tolerance and sometimes teasing!! Blehh!! :P You've been one of my most truest and honest friends who is kind, patient and funny!! X)I am truly sorry if i had been too overwhelming or domineering at times. I constantly remind myself to lower my temper and embrace composure but if it did not work and i still hurt you, my deepest apologies. I never meant for any of that to happen. : \*Faster accept my apology!!* :PYou're off to a big adventure!! After countless steamboat together, i hope you'll savour every moment you have in U.S!! Make the best of every experience but remember to take care and watch for safety!! If results come out and is favourable, we might not see each other for a year. This makes me sad but i believe as long as we keep in touch, our bonds are tied. And you, my BEST guy friend and myself, WE will live through the long distance!! : ) So THANK YOU for making my life a richer one!! Thank you for always reminding me to be true to myself!! I will surely miss you tonnes!! :''[ Take good care and have an amazing summer!! ^_^
Bestest.*~}i{~*
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It fears, and fears especially because of fear itself...Constantly anxious, constantly uncertain...Security, insecurity, insecure in the most,What remains are questions, doubts and sometimes blaming too. But why not faith, faith, and faith also??What about believing? What about hope??Because love, Love and LOVE alone,Can overpower all weakness, angst,Overthrow, defeats all shame.Leaving only whats important, whats true,That trust will reward, trust that leaves no mystery... 
My new guardian angel?? : )*~}i{~*
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Fate is an unusual thing. Its destiny that people meet each other and become friends.Its a miracle that friends develop into important individuals to one another,And eventually, with a little magic, two people become lovers. : ) Ahh... The beauty of two fates intertwined. ^_^Its been exactly a year... Alot has happened in between...And as i think back on this time, especially now that i have recovered,That there are many things i feel truly proud and grateful of. : ] Although our paths have become divided, And due to awkwardness and complication, we cannot go back to being normal friends,I am proud to say that, I have found back
My happy self!! :3I am happy that i can think back about us and feel no more pain...I am happy that i can listen to the songs you sang to me before and not feel sad...I am happy that i can look at our past and smile and remember only the joy...I am happy that once upon a time, you showed me that i was capable of being loved,No matter how complicated or stubborn i was... :PI am happy that for once, i was able to feel and share lovewith someone who loved me back...These are the things i feel very proud to have and own. : )Looking back, i do feel so very touched for the care you've shown me...I remember clearly first time somebody ever cleaned my fork and spoon before starting a meal...I remember it was the first time somebody taught me how to eat two of my favourite food TOGETHER (although it was a weird combo, but it tasted DOPE!! :D)...I remember the first time somebody ever held my hand, and i was excited about the adventure that was about to happen next, eventhough it was only a stroll in the shopping mall... XDI remember the first time somebody ever piggied-back me for such a long distance, that i felt embarrassed and regretted i had such a heavy dinner before... :SI remember the first time somebody ever sang to me, and sang only for me...Ahhhh.... All these were wonderful memories that i would keep forever in my treasure chest... ^_^I just wanted to thank God for blessing me...For teaching me to love which brought me so much joy...For letting me feel special and cared about during that time...I am eternally grateful... : ]Without this, i would not be as strong and mindful as i am now...I hope that next year this time, I would not consciously remember this date anymore...Yet, become more appreciative of whoever and whatever that is in my life...Always treasuring each moment as it passes, Not taking for granted it will always be there...And always remembering all the good that others have done for me. ^_^Amen. 
*~}i{~*
P/s : Coincidental enough, Supermoon occured today since 18 years!! Coincidental enough, today is a Saturday again!! Oh well. : )
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Every time i hear that song, i think of you.I could keep replaying it over and over again,eventhough i can't quite understand the lyrics. :SIn a fraction of a minute,Memories of the time we had spent together would flash before my eyes.Although it was just for a short while before you graduated,But still, that period meant a lot to me, and i miss it sooo. :'')How out of everyone,
Only you saw me for Me...How you never judged me for my wrong but instead,Shared with me your own experience
which lead me to consider another's perspective.How you could make a dull, tired, long day
A short, eventful and meaningful one!! :DI still haven't met anybody who could do this as natural as you...You made everyone around you feel good about themselves...That is something i really have and is still learning to do... ^_^I guess you could be considered as a rare type of person...Constantly sunny and full of pleasant surprises...It makes me smile even now just thinking about all the silly things we've done together...It was the first time somebody came between odds,And let me feel safe and warm...Even after so many years, i still remember that day clearly... : )How i wished i could have told you before...Thanked you for all the times i desperately needed a friend, Needed comfort and patient advice...I guess it'll always be too late for that...But i do believe you'll always be in my heart,Forever respected, forever admired...Forever my Biggie then.
*~}i{~*
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Semester 2 has just begun, and i must say,BOY!! Has it been a massive start or what?! :DYou awesomes are to thank for!!Always rocking!! Constantly spontaneous!! And plentiful in MADNESS!! X)Just my type of frappuccino!! : 9 [ I dread coffee #,# ]In this short 2 weeks +, ALOT has happened!!Many of which would probably be frowned upon, or envied about. X]Nonetheless, ngiek ngiek ngiek!!I would like to call this period, The Nut Season. >x)BEHOLD~~~Nutcase #1 : Starbucks, Genting
After having dinner at KL,2 hours later, BOOM!!Starbucks Genting. X)
Normal shot. 0: )
Mental shot!!! >x)
Coincidentally, it was Prayer of the Sky Kingdom night.We were privileged to witness and be deafened bya more than 10minute long red-fire-cracker spectacle.Tonnes were crowded on the street, including BoBo. X)Nutcase #2 : Melaka Day Trip
It was all about food Food FOOD!! : 9Melaka's RENOWN Chicken Rice Ball!! :D
Melaka's popular CENDOL!! @,@Many flavours of which DURIAN was the bomb!! :P"""
We flew to Mahkota Parade for some chill timeand a movie after some shopping on Jonker street!! : )As you can see, we had a good time making fun of people in the arcade too!! XDWe watched Shaolin after this!! Surprisingly touching story-line!!The monks were plain CUTE!! Lols!! ;D
Satay Celok for dinner!! *slurrpss*Lok lok style!! But only in peanut curry sauce!! ^_^But before that...The queue was soooo long at Satay Capitol that,We couldn't help but keep entertained.
This was what happened next. #,# LMAO!!We're just chunnted this way!! ; ]
Nutcase #3 : Kuantan Excursion
We went directly to Kuantan that night after Melaka!! :O
An amazing weekend was awaiting us!!
And who best to show us around but the locals?? X)
This was one of the highlights of the trip!! : ]It is called the Rainbow Waterfall site at Sungai Lembing. ^_^It was an hours long bumpy four-wheel drive ride followed by a40minutes hike up the rocky, slopy, slippery mountains before we reached. X)
This was silly us trying to master one of their local tricks!! XDEasily, locals there balance the sharpest point of the smaller rockon another rock. The smaller rock is so balanced upright without any support.In the end, we all did not succeed. X)Intelligence did not get the best of us.
We found a way to cheat. @,@Simple physics got us choosing large surface areas as base.
Oh well. X]
It was a challenging hike up and all i had were a pair of crocs to get me there. :SThank lord we made it there in one peace and
enjoyed the whole morning in the loving cradle of mother nature. :3*Notice the beautiful rainbow behind us?? :D*
Just your very typical city girl,
i have not been in such a carwash before. :SIn Kuantan, it is so blardy cheap that i swear,
I wish i could just pay RM4 for the wash then spend
1.5 hours scrubbing my baby with a toothbrush!! >,<*
It was not long before we headed back for KL after this. : )
In summary, Kuantan is a friendly quaint place!! :D
Where samans could be paid of at RM20 (NEVER IN KL!! XP),
Doctors were unusually chatty with patients (not to mention KEPOH XD),
Beaches were flawlessly breathtaking and the air salty with character
(unlike KL air which is fully carbon-monoxided :S),
And car washes at prices worth dying for!!!!! #,#
So special thanks to Sammie babeh and Bobo for being the two most impressive tourguides throughout our stay!! ^_^ You both showed a city girl how to love Kuantan and to me, that is a freaking BIG achievement!!! *SALUTE* THANKS AGAIN!!! exoh-exoh.
Nutcase #4 : Valley Valentine's LunchAfter class, i randomly (as usual) recruited a huge bunchof Biznerdz to Vday Lunch!! :DOll zee way tvu ampang for zis amayzeen Thai lunch!! *,*
This roast mutton dish is heaven in ever bite!! *droools*
My FAAAVOURITE Thai dessert!! :D
Red jelly water chestnut is LURVE!! ^_^
Just some of us purdy ladies!! ; )The one hour plus long journey was surely worth it!!Being surrounded by all my loving friends, it surely was a meaningful Valentines!! : ]The next few days, a few of us woke up at 6.30amand went all the way to Puchong just for Dimsum!! XD Call us crazy!! But we're just awesomely mental this way and i lurve it!! ^_^More adventures to come!! More hearts to collect!! : )Exoh.*~}i{~*
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之前发生过这么多这么多，我只能感谢你有过在我身边。我们的友情有怎么复杂都好，起码我当时能确认它是诚恳的。你觉得你被利用？怎么我却感到被取代？每一次约你都被拒绝。。。一次后，还好。第二次后，勉强还能接受。但过了第三次，我就得放弃了，对不对？对，我了解人有时候需要自己的空间，可是，读书都好，也是需要吃饭，对不对？？我也在苦读，也在烦恼。是有人和我说过，做错每样事情最好不错多过三次。。。因为过了三次后，那种失望是。。。伤感是。。。看到你能和其他人分享你的时间。看到你能和其她人一起读书，讨论问题。。。妒忌也好，小气也好，这都是因为在我心里中，你对我重要才会发现出这种感觉。你觉得被人遗忘，我觉得被人忽略。不是你静悄悄的离去，没人发现。而是你选择不联络，你选择要被动。我却已经没力气去推了。。。我累了。。。请原谅我这个。。。但我了解友情像爱情一样，双方都必要付出， 不是只是一方在在乎，挣扎。我不希望在你眼中你只看到这么薄的一幕。我对你的友情，从来没有过利用和企图。我只希望我们这次疏远后的空间，不会又是一场误会， 一场本来是缘分赠送给我们的礼物，而不明不睦的被奢侈掉。不想。< / 3
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Life has been wonderful recently!! So many doors have opened to me since i closed the last one. : ) Everything has become less repetitive, less routinized. I love that my friends are absolutely spontaneous!!I am being reminded again and again how much i love them!!You know who you hawt chunks are!! ; ] What a wonderful way of starting a new year, no?? Although exams are around the corner, and i have big things to achieve this year,But someone told me before that as long as i don't lose sight of myself,Everything will continue to flow, if not in the direction i want it to,Just like a river, it never stops flowing, and i never stop swimming. ^_^Exciting!! What do i have before me now??Arrrhhhh!! I can't begin to tell you how totally ecstatic i am of my new love!! :D And meeting up with some of my past, i realize i actually did miss them!! :ONever nevertheless, may everything take its natural course to glory. ; ]Let all the good times be stagnant in memory lane and be remembered holistically within my heart, forever and always. 2011, BRING IT!! ^,^W
I love you are just words.You know you mean more. ^_^*~}i{~*
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zinrue
Still remembering the first day you were brought to my house,I was an excited five year old who couldn't resist to welcome you with a tremendous hug.How blurry eyed but not shy you were, we adored you instantly.How we decided your name was hilarious.All 4 of us wrote it on a white scrap, and drew lots. Finally, mum got her way and it was decided - Drama. : )Scruffy little thing you were, teeth not even fully grown.It was horrendous the first few nights with your whining howls.But we couldn't blame you, you must've been missing your own mom.In time you were practically queen of the house. I sneaked you in all the time and cuddled you on the sofa. Silently we would both dose off, with you comfortably in my arms.No one could understand our attachment and the secrets i told you then.However, health challenged me often at that age.I nearly had asthma and so, you were sent to stand guard outside.That didn't stop me from playing with you more outside though.Maybe that was how i started loving the outdoors more than in, it was you.Bath times were your greatest fear.I would trick you with bread or cookies just to get you out from under the car.You always fell for it and i always felt smuck about it after. X)Waiting for you to dry off, combing was a hassle.But you were a dainty one, always wanting to look pretty.Obediently, you would sit quietly beside me while i smoothen out the knots.Time passed and everything changed.But always filled with surprises when you first had your own batch of pups.God were we proud of you... :'') 3 generations and you were still going strong.More amazing is that you even lived pass so many of your own.We were grateful to have you always watching our house for so many years. ^_^98 animal years was as far as you have gone.It might not be long enough for humans,But those years with your faithful companion,I could be no less grateful for having made a difference in my life.I love you, Drama... You'll always be one of my fondest. You will always be the dog who made a young girl's childhood a dream come true.Rest in peace. You are truly missed.*~}i{~*
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It seems that as each year comes to an end,
And Christmas being one of my most favourite festival of the year,I can't help but realise that the idiom, "Wisdom comes with age." has become more and more true. : ) I no longer just feel excited about opening presents, or meeting up with friends...Instead, i look forward more to buying them, wrapping them up really prettily, and imagining the reaction of all their faces when i give it to them. ^_^Hahahaha Really no longer that young, naive child i used to be.I still vividly remember when i was around 8 or 9 years old,I used to go to those church parties, some of which were held in houses. All the excitement and anxiousness would be derived days before, All because i actually only got to go to church once a year. X) This particular memory however has always been one of my fondest.It was a game that could be played by everyone, no age restrictions at all.Everyone around me were strangers, and although it might be hard to believe now,But i was long ago, a shy child once upon a time. :PMy only acquaintance was my aunt who brought me to the party, the others were just strangers to me. We were playing pictogram where we had to draw out the word given to us. ^_^The dude before me got Sandwich but he drew a triangular thing nobody could guess.Next up was me, and i was worried. :S The word i got was Shepard. Now was that a challenge for a 9 year old?? #,#I remember looking back at my aunt, and then smiling.Minutes later, i drew a person which everyone guessed as Man.That wasn't right, so i drew him holding a wooden staff, just like the one Moses had.And instantly, everybody knew!! :D Boy was i happy then!! What made me feel even more special that night was that i believed in myself. I could appeal to people in a peculiar way but not one that is harmful. I even heard my aunt say to her friend that i was really good at expressing myself!! Till today, whenever i feel i wasn't good enough for something,I would ponder back on this memory. I had to somehow believe and remember that God made me the way i am because i am unique and special. There isn't another me in this world that could replace me. ^_^Funny how things like this pops out of my brain during this season round.Heck, must be the Micheal Buble song - Let It Snow that has been replaying for the past half hour. :D Nonetheless, i truly truly feel grateful for everything i have now...Time passed by stagnantly on Christmas day,Me capturing each moment in slow motion, wondering if next year would be the same?I really love my family... No matter how imperfect they are. :"]By then, i hope i'll be seeing the similar view from a webcam miles and miles away instead. But i foresee lots of tears hopefully of happiness or homesickness. XDMay God permit whatevers destined to happen, to happen with grace.I truly, deeply pray.
Merry Christmas one and all!!May you have a meaningful heartfelt one like me!! : ) *~}i{~*
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Having already met you, You may not be just a fantasy. Just awaiting for fate to permit us,We shall meet again in future.Perhaps then, we would both be ready.We would both see that its been worth the wait,Worth every wonder and hope.In the correct time, all would be revealed.In time, all the pain will go away, and new feelings will come.In time, we would both see each other clearly...In time, only happily ever after will be. 
*~}i{~*
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zinrue
Silhouette, moving objectsMoving star, thats where you areEyes closed, i think i see youEyes open, nope, not imaginationSilent murmurs, my heart speaking own wordsCheeky smile, yeap its been a whileDrowning slumber, its finally decemberMyth and mystery, would you be my destiny?
*~}i{~*
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zinrue
Recently, i've been telling myself,"Smile dear, smiling helps.""Appreciate dear, you are loved.""Enjoy dear, things could only get better."It is true that at some point, things have gotten a bit better.I wake up everyday with not much ache in my heart anymore...I'm being surrounded by crazy people who pretend they are macho, but in fact, are really caring, funny and irritating. XDI can laugh heartily and enjoy living each moment as everything seems to pass by really slowly.I see things now quite differently, things i have not noticed before, although some shapes still appear the same to me and i'm still really blur and slow. @,@I talk to people with more patience, with less judgment but more listening.I quietly smile to myself every time i successfully avoid an argument, proud that i did not lose my temper.All in all, i feel this gradual change in habit and moods rather pleasing. I think my parents are liking it too. XD Although occasionally the sting still burns around the edges,And the pain chills itself throughout my whole system,And i struggle to compose my thoughts, emotions and heartbeat again,I comfort myself by saying that at least it doesn't hurt as much as it used to.At least i am brave enough to face myself, to understand time will heal all,Even if there was no closure, no clarity, and not much understanding in between,But i choose to believe that God is good and life will go on and will only get better, right?? : ]Very recently i found out that absolution has finally come to a friend and her ex.It involves me not, but as a bystander and supporter, in many ways i admire them and the closure they were able to achieve together.Although it didn't work out with them, but at least they both know the reasons they couldn't be together.The comfort was that they knew they both loved each other, but under complicated circumstances, they just couldn't be.Yet, who said there can't be a happily ever after for both of them?At the very least, they knew why it didn't work out.They discussed about it and nothing had to be guessed.Only after seeing this did i realise how important it is to have closure.Closure being no loose ends, and no more room for wondering why.I used to wish so much that i could have that.To be able to discuss about it, say out every single feeling i still had, and finally face the truth without having to guess and wonder what if. Unfortunately, there is a first for everything.Perhaps i had to learn it the hard way this time, in order for me to not make the same mistake next. Hrmmmm... I suppose theres always a higher purpose to everything...May this lesson help me remember and bear in mind always,"
Treat people nicer than necessary,
Because you never know what battles they are facing on their own everyday."
Smiling helps too!! ^_^
*~}i{~*
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zinrue
其实，如果我们把每一样不知道的事，知道后，而选择计较的话，我觉得，人生一定会很难过吧。。。知道后，又能怎么样？？知道后， 会有所改变吗？？这之前，得先问自己到底在不在乎，对吧？？虽然说人是会变的，想法，行为上都会，但，因为从这些改变里我们才发觉到真真的自己，自己想要的， 自己要争取的， 自己需要的些什么，都会一瞬间变得很清楚。。。难道这不算是了解吗？？嗯。。。 了解自己需要什么是很重要的。了解能让人体会到满足，体会到愉快。它给人带来很多方便，因为忽略了不重要的人物或事物，就不算是错过或不负责任， 这就不会导致任何后悔的结局。所以，尽管某些事情，本来不知道的，过后却知道的话，那就让它逗留在后脑里吧。。。因为它已经不在是值得烦恼的事情了。; ]*~}i{~*
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zinrue
Arrhhhhhhh!!Thats nearly the first thing i did when i came home!!Chopped it allll off!! @,@
I guess it'll be all gone for the next week and a half!!Shucks!! Easy maintenance RULES!! ^,^W!!!!!!!! Chopped what off??? Where does your imagination take you?? >:D P/s : Whooooossshhhhh...... Swimming 3 times a week?? Thats what you call a FIT girl!! ; )
*~}i{~*
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Say whaaaat???!! @,@I can't believe its been a month!!A MONTH since my last post!! :SMmmpphhh mmmpphhhh mmmppphhh!!Live you!! LIVE!!!!!!!! >,<||||||*Passes dramatic moment. Swt*Ohhh!!! Theres just so much so much that has been going on!! :DThis past 2 weeks have been nothing but dream-like!!I can't believe it is actually happening!! *,*And i gotta thank my beloved brother for most of it!! :")"Kae, although you might never see this, and probably never hear me say this to you cause i'm too shy, but seriously, I love you so much Kae!! :''] What would i do without you?? I think i would have experienced WW3 if it weren't for you!! Thank you, for prepping them up... For letting them understand and see from a different perspective... And for possibly debating with them too!! :S I couldn't have done it without you... You're so surprising sometimes, i really feel like suffocating you with hugs!! : ] Thank you Kae... You're the BEST!!" *hearts*And hence it all began...With the confirmed results... Anxious phone calls and hook ups... The exciting agreement... The peaceful move out... The hectic cleaning up... And finally, the memorable move in... Mmmmm.... I couldn't have asked for more. : ) God has His ways, always has. Just believe and trust in His plans, and everything will be alright. ^_^ I am ever so grateful for whatever i have now... Having just had a craaaazyy week, i'm just so excited for the next, and the next!! :D ~ Sunday : KFC & Mc D "border" dinner + Legend of Fist!! [1st row!! WTH???!!] XD~ Monday : Raining KITA dinner!! : 9~ Tuesday : Munggar dinner + Jaya Jusco "discussion" (Part #1)!! >:D~ Wednesday : Broga Porridge & Wan Tan Mee + Jaya Jusco "discussion" (Part #2) #,# ~ Thursday : Lat Tong at Bandar Tech!! [Kau-fu drove me in his Mazda!!] :D ~ Friday : Broga Tom Yam Pan Mee lunch!! :''9 And everything else *shhhhhhhhhh...* in between!! ^_^Sammie has come back to us too!! Gosshhh did we SCREAM!!!! XD!!Finally finally, everything is back to normal!! And this time, no more missing out!! ; ) Another massive week with lots of readings to come!!Yeshhhh, i am drowning in excitement, even if it means facing a mountain pile of work load!! Bring it ON!!!!!! ^,^W!!!!Monday, please come quick!! ;D *~}i{~*
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zinrue
Thanks to Dar dar, After 3 days, i finally finished watching this Korean Drama 原来是美男阿! ^_^
This is the first romance series i've watched since the move on. Eventhough it might not seem like a big deal,But i am truly proud of myself... For not sobbing like a baby,For not drowning in anymore pain... : ) Unlike most other dramas i've watched,This one turned out to be a surprise!! :DI didn't expect to learn and understand so much,Just from a film that probably most "macho" people won't watch.Needless to say, there are haters in this world. But who could stop them?? :PThe scene that gave me the biggest epiphany,And the biggest impact was when Shinyu (who used to love Minnang), scolded Taekyong when he said he would let go of Minnang because the closer they were, more hurt she would feel.This was what Shinyu said,"你不是放她走，而是推开她吧！放手这句话, 只有一直抓住不放的人才有资格说!你抓住她不放了吗?? 我一直抓住她, 到最后也没有放手...虽然在你眼里看起来会很可笑... 但是我坚持到了最后, 才可以放手. 你没那样做过吧...你只是在你位置上, 看着因为累而逃跑的她,连追的想法也没有过吧...是啊... 你就守着你的自尊心, 一直站到她跑到远远的...你真有出息啊... 黄泰京.."
From Left :
Shinyu,
Taekyong
This made me understand so much,Why i was finally able to let go and move on...It took that last step, the step i did that alot of people would laugh and at me for...That "silly thing" i had to do for me to realise,I had done my very best to save what we used to have,But it just wasn't enough.That made me understand more clearly.Eventhough a lot had happened between us,But at my very end, i realised, there was no point fighting anymore.I knew deep down then, I deserved better. : ) Taking such a long time to learn all this,I still feel so gullible when it comes to relationships...Like an infant who hasn't learnt how to crawl, Yet struggled to walk and run...This was my own mistake... I was too rash...Nonetheless, it has become one of the
most valuable experience life has offered me...Even when it took the hard way to teach me this lesson,But it will serve me as a constant reminder,Never be rash... Always always be patient...And never never fight for things that do not belong to you...Because like what Minnang said,"让我们深爱的人放弃对他来说重要的人/事, 并不是爱."If its meant to be yours, it will be faithful...Because to love with a forceful heart, is not love at all...
GohMinnang the Pabo :P
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zinrue
曾经有人告诉过我，想念是表达珍惜，也是感觉幸福的一种方式。有资格去想念一个人，不管是亲人，朋友，还是爱人，也算是属于我们的幸福。因为人生很短，很多时候，我们在过着忙碌的生活时，就会不知不觉的忽略到身边对我们很重要的一些人。这当时后的不小心，久了，就会变成习惯。人与人之间的关系，的关心， 的想念，就像风吹过一样，一挂能感觉到很凉爽，很舒服。。。可是当一过了，就只是被之前享受的人此刻牵挂，不够深印象的会让人忘记，因为不够深刻，不够感动。人不是因为自私才会这样。每个人的性格里，多多少少都会有得过且过的烂病。只是在发现之前拥有的已消失在后头了，那时，后悔也该来不及了。。。后悔的话，只不过会带给自己辛苦，心酸，悲哀而已。所以如果以后有幸能及时擦决到这份想念
正在悄悄的从我们手中溜跑时，急时抓紧它，不让它逃出手掌的话，可能我们就可以换一口气，自豪的称赞自己，“对！我今天真有本事！又能成功的守护我多一天的幸福了。”所以现在如果有这所谓的想念或被想念的人的话，请好好珍惜。。。因为失去以后，要在找回一样的幸福，恐怕没那么容易。。。珍惜现在，珍惜所有。*~}i{~*
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zinrue
Fuuuuuuuuuuhhh....!!!At long last, after tomorrow morning,Shann will be a FREE GIRL!! :DIt has been nothing but madness this holidays!! So much shit happened during this time,I'm just so glad its coming to an end!! ;PAnd the best thing about everything is,I'll have a fat paycheck when it ends too!!Just imagine the next crazy thing i'll do!! X)Freedom is what i am savoring most now.Having forgotten what its like to do whatever things i like and whenever,I am determined to make this coming term a more memorable one!! One that involves me being nothing short of AWESOME!! ^_^September, just you wait!!Imma storm your way with more than just headbanging!! ^,^W!!
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zinrue
One down, two more to go!! Whoooooossshhhh!! ^,^W!!Yesterday was impeccable!!Having studied till 2am the night before,The early paper that came in the morning was A BREEZE. :DLOLS!! Midway through the exam,I was actually wondering if it was really necessary to study that hard before??But once again, i was painfully reminded that,No, we should never ever take things for granted. NEVER.Especially when it came to ones future.I shyly turned away those thoughts and instead,Was enlightened by the sudden epiphany.All the late nights, the repeated revision
and horrid nervousness is worth it!!Because if you want something, you gotta deserve it.You gotta put hard effort if you're ever gonna beat yourself. : )Having quite a victorious morning, The day did not end just there. X)I had TREATS!! :DSpending the whole day with Jie and Andrew,I couldn't have expected a more awesome day!! ^_^Lunch at Sweet Chat, i had
my favourite dessert - Red Ruby from there!! : 9I really needed something sweet!! Its been ages since i had sinful things in me!! XDAfter that, it was SHOPPING TIME!! ^,^W!!Andrew, you are a charm!! Thank you for all the wonderful tips!!It was a freaking wicked experience shopping with you!! :DI just totally LOVE the stuff we got!! ; )Can't wait to see the others' jaws drop!! XDAnd note to be taken :
I'll be carrying a backpack the next time we shop!!Conveniently BIG and environment friendly too!! ^_^ Then we caught a devastating movie!!! Eeeeeeeee!!!!Andrew Low!! You owe me another cinema experience!! X)I almost puked out all the popcorn watching Jude Law slicing open himself and other people without any form of anesthesia!! Goodddd!! Can you imagine the pain?? :SAnd DUDE!! Those people are like Cyborgs!! Freaky things!! But they could bleed!! Massive grossness!! @,@But but but, the Irish French Fries was FABULOUS!! : 9Lets get more More MORE next round k??!! You gotta love potatoes!!!!! :D :D :DThen rush rush rush home, bom bom,And then speed speed speed out for party!! Happy Birthday Wai Teng!! : ]Hope you had a memorable time with us!!Wrestling and eating an incomplete cake!! XD!!It was undoubtedly a day worth remembering... : )Although super exhausted and everything...But having people i could just be myself with,People who wouldn't change me for a million bucks,People who appreciate and love me for who i really am...Mmmm... Thats heaven enough for me!! ^_^ *~}i{~*
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zinrue
