Straightjacket Feeling.

There are many forms of freedom.
Freedom of speech,
Freedom of expression,
Freedom of action,
Freedom of choice
Freedom of who YOU want to be...

People who know me well (there arent many out there),
Knows that I enjoy having freedom.
Since teenage-hood, freedom has been something
I have always fought for.
Fought does also include the physical sense.

Arrogance, defiance, denial...
Yeahh All that happens when my freedom is challenged.
I hate being controlled.
I hate being fussed over.
I particularly despise being misunderstood.

Recently,
I find myself struggling to wriggle myself out of a tight clasp.
Its not that i dont appreciate the care from others,
But too much at a constant rate gets me suffocated.

When theres something that is NOT related to you happen,
And i feel irritated about and voice it out,
I get "soothed" with words like,
"Calm down" or "Dont angry la".
Goshh... I am not.

Please dont ever misunderstand,
I am ALWAYS COOL.
It is only when someone fusses about it,
That i start to get angry.
Like SERIOUSLY, YOU WILL KNOW IF I AM NOT OKAYH.
I will freak out so much, you wished you hadnt known me. X)

So omg......
Just take it easy...
Give me MY freedom and space to vent and express!
Quit asking me about this and that all the time!
Quit trying to calm me down with pats and whining.
I get seriously IRRITATED by it.
Its worst than me in a straightjacket. : (


If i need help, i will SURELY ask it!
Dont pry, dont involve yourself unnecessarily!
Everything ISNT ABOUT YOU all the time.
I hope you understand that.

Everybody has their privacy.
They deserve their own space.
Let them come to you!

Dont be OVER sensitive about things!
Try to be more forgiving, and less calculative!
Life would surely be MUCH better,
If you just let things come by naturally!
Instead of insisting for things to happen,
When it isnt suppose to.

True courage is when one DARES to be yourself,
Without pretend, without a mask.

Saturday, October 24, 2009 at 7:22 PM

2 Comments to "Straightjacket Feeling."

everyone is diff in their own way, everyone has their way of venting n expressing. your's (and mine, which i believe is slowly deteriorating away) is quite diff in this surrounding. everyone is all nice and sometimes fake coz all they want is to please others by doing or agreeing with what others think. I hate it so when i have to do that so i could be accepted. That's why many cant seem to accept our out-spoken mind. so dun get too upset over it.

i hope i didnt misunderstand the meaning behind this blog. ><



I miss my old self.

Hey dear,

Yeahh I understand what you mean.
We've been experiencing the same having to "act" for all these years through highschool.

But i dont have to do it now anymore.
I am tired, and i have accepted that regardless of what other ppl think, i'm just gonna be myself. : )

When i wrote this post, i meant it for someone to see. Someone who still needs alot of time getting to know me.

Lols So dont worry about it yeah... Thanks for caring dear...

Miss you a million tonnes more than i used to! XD

Hearts to Bits,
Shann: )