做不成男女朋友，做个特别的朋友
~ by Thomas Chong 两个可能彼此相爱、喜欢的人， 但是，又不属于友情、爱情、亲情中的任何一种， 彼此不能成为男女朋友，只能做个特别的朋友…… 也许是为了朋友之间的义气，不能归属。 也许是为了顾及家人的意见，不能归位。 也许是为了自己的前程，不能承诺。 也许是相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。 也许是相遇太晚，彼此身边已经有了另一个人。 也许是回头太迟，对方已不再等待。 也许彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线…… 不过即使没在一起， 彼此仍能找到塌实的感觉， 仍然会保持不隶属任何一种感情的关系。 但是彼此心底清楚， 对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。 因为有了彼此，心里总是被幸福塞的满满的…… 即使不能彼此名正言顺的牵着手逛街， 还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。 彼此有喜欢的人，口头上会说不吃醋， 心里却会觉得胃疼…… 对方遇到困难时， 会尽全力伸出援助之手， 不会计较谁又欠了谁。 对方生病了， 会缴尽脑汁找药方， 恨不得变成护士，陪伴在身旁…… 每个人这辈子， 心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友， 很矛盾的行为。 一开始可能不甘心只做朋友的， 但久了，突然发现这样最好。 宁愿这样关心对方的心情， 总好过彼此生活在一起受伤害…… 做不成男女朋友， 当个特别的朋友， 有什么不好呢？ 你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢? 很多的感情， 都败在了现实的面前…… 友情可以演变成为爱情， 爱情最终进化成为亲情， 彼此就将友情直接进步到亲情…… 人生不过百年…… 能牵手的时候，请别只是肩并肩， 能拥抱的时候，请别只是手牵手， 能在一起的时候，请别轻易分开， 能成为红颜知己，请别刻意离开！ 珍惜彼此之间塌实的感觉...
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zinrue
Today when i was studying...Something caught my eye on the far right of my study table...I was distracted for a moment again...Staring blankly into space,I realised theres just so many things i see and do that still reminds me of you...But what surprised me the most is, eventhough i still miss you...My heart didn't hurt as much as it did yesterday or the day before... :'')I realise that if everyday i removed something that used to be ours,Then my heart would gradually heal...And that part of me would learn to accept thatThat happiness i once had and loved so much,
No longer belongs to me anymore...So one by one, i would have to say goodbye to them and move on...Today, after smelling the first bunch of roses ever given to me by a boy for the last time,
And consciously trying to remember this beautiful scent forever,
Its sweetness and the wonderful memory it came with
when i first received it nearly 5 months ago...
I finally bid all four of those beautiful roses a final farewell... :'') You taught me how to love flowers,
Eventhough i used to think it was silly gesture...
But now i can see how beautiful they are,
The true meaning they carry along with their once red petals...
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zinrue
Its funny how life gives you the things you wanted so much, at the oddest and most unlikely of times, when You least expect it too.After weeks of emotional struggle and intense missing,Yesterday night when we broke up,I finally dreamt About you.Lols!! And this just reconfirms my belief all over again,That life is in fact filled with surPrises, lots of them. : )I didn't sleep a tearful night yesterday...Unlike the ones i had battled wrecklessly a few nights ago...I cannot admit that it didn't hurt at all...But in a way, the few days before that helped me prepare well for Yesterday night.I was a happier girl since two days before this...Because quiet time for thinking has made what i wanted in life clearer for me...I really thought i understood you better...I really thought by giving you your space, we could get through this hard time, together.But then, i was wrOng. Whats love without missing and yearning?But whats life with misery and depressioN??I really understand now... What it means to be happy... What it means to feel loved...To once upon a time, be hugged, be held on to, and be treasured...Feeling that special, that important to someone else...To know that I am capable of loving and being loved...And that life could be one that is as colourful as the rainbow...For showinG me all of that, Thank You...I couldn't have wished for someone else... : ) I will remember never to love selfishly anYmore...I will remember to be patient and more understanding in my future...You've taught me to understand myself better too...Losing that faith isn't totally your fault.You keep apologising, but you're not the only one who should.So, sorry for all the pain i had caused you in the past, or is causing you now...I believe that you will pull through without much problem or regret...Because you have many great friends like i do, who will remind us of how awesome we really really Are... :'']Sure, it hurts now knowing that that happiness we had can no longer continue to exist...But i would not look back in vain or regret, because i knoW i had it before, and it is mine to keep forever...May this chapter, My First,Be one that will always remain in my heart,Be one to reminD me that life can be more wonderful than it already is...So i can appreciate that aspect I was blessed with,And move oN with faith towards another sunrise,Where hopefully, God has another adventure awaiting me... :'')Farewell, my first love... }i{
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zinrue
Although i have not been a staunch christian,Yet who is to say and judge that i have not been a devoted one??When i was young, i was able to attend church more frequently than now. Every Saturday and Sunday, there would be morning trips to services, then afternoon stay backs for fellowship. This habit did not last long, as i was later committed to other co-curricular activities. Despite not going to church often after that, i still believe in God and His existence very very much. I could sum up all that i have learned from church in ONE word. No, it is not fear. The word is FAITH.Eventhough i was really little at that time, but this particular sermon was so powerful to me as a little girl then, that it has impacted me till this very day. In brief, the gist of the sermon went something like this :"You cannot see God. You may not be able to see Him with your naked eye, nor can you hear His voice speaking to you like any other person can in this room. But ask yourself this, can you feel His presence? Similar to FAITH, you cannot see it, better yet touch it. But why is that everyone who claims they do not believe in God still continue to have faith in what they do??Because faith, is a strong belief that no one can steal or take away from you, unless you decide to lose it yourself.
To believe, is a powerful thing. To believe that you will do well, or manage your own life gives you the strength and confidence to achieve it. As long as your faith is resilient, no one can ever stop you from achieving what you're set out to do, or to tell you otherwise. And to accept God into your hearts is the same. He will never leave you once you have accepted Him. Because God is loyal, and God loves even when he isn't loved in return."Does this faith i have still exist?? Can i continue to fight for what i used to believe in??Will there be a happy ending to what seems to be becoming a closed chapter??I understand my options now...I understand both of them well...But whatever the outcome may be,Please Lord, give me the strength to continue living a cheerful life, filled with love, passion and all things You made beautiful. Amen.
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zinrue
Feeling uncertain,Not knowing if the feeling is mutual anymore...There was no assurance,Nor was there any reminder...Words and action,Which is more trustworthy?Undervalued,Has everything been worth it all this while?It used to be.How about now?Differences,Can there be reconciliation?Or are we just too different,Too undeserving to each other?The past,Just thinking of it makes my heart ache even more...Those happy times,Where have they all gone???
So is love.It is how much you value each other,That gives each other that faith, that assurance.It gives each other the strength and courage To continue walking next to each other hand in hand,To continue on that journey, which started out as a fairytale,Once upon a time...
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zinrue
