失落。

之前发生过这么多这么多,
我只能感谢你有过在我身边。
我们的友情有怎么复杂都好,
起码我当时能确认它是诚恳的。

你觉得你被利用?
怎么我却感到被取代?

每一次约你都被拒绝。。。
一次后,还好。
第二次后,勉强还能接受。
但过了第三次,我就得放弃了,对不对?
对,我了解人有时候需要自己的空间,
可是,读书都好,也是需要吃饭,对不对??
我也在苦读,也在烦恼。

是有人和我说过,
做错每样事情最好不错多过三次。。。
因为过了三次后,那种失望是。。。

伤感是。。。
看到你能和其他人分享你的时间。
看到你能和其她人一起读书,讨论问题。。。
妒忌也好,小气也好,
这都是因为在我心里中,你对我重要才会发现出这种感觉。

你觉得被人遗忘,
我觉得被人忽略。
不是你静悄悄的离去,没人发现。
而是你选择不联络,
你选择要被动。
我却已经没力气去推了。。。
我累了。。。
请原谅我这个。。。
但我了解友情像爱情一样,
双方都必要付出, 不是只是一方在在乎,挣扎。

我不希望在你眼中你只看到这么薄的一幕。
我对你的友情,从来没有过利用和企图。
我只希望我们这次疏远后的空间,
不会又是一场误会, 一场本来是缘分赠送给我们的礼物,
而不明不睦的被奢侈掉。

不想。

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Tuesday, January 25, 2011 at 6:04 AM , 2 Comments

A River Flows in Me - Bonjour 2011!! ;D

Life has been wonderful recently!! So many doors have opened to me since i closed the last one. : )
Everything has become less repetitive, less routinized.
I love that my friends are absolutely spontaneous!!
I am being reminded again and again how much i love them!!
You know who you hawt chunks are!! ; ]

What a wonderful way of starting a new year, no??
Although exams are around the corner, and i have big things to achieve this year,
But someone told me before that as long as i don't lose sight of myself,
Everything will continue to flow, if not in the direction i want it to,
Just like a river, it never stops flowing, and i never stop swimming. ^_^

Exciting!! What do i have before me now??
Arrrhhhh!! I can't begin to tell you how totally ecstatic i am of my new love!! :D
And meeting up with some of my past, i realize i actually did miss them!! :O
Never nevertheless, may everything take its natural course to glory. ; ]

Let all the good times be stagnant in memory lane and be remembered holistically within my heart, forever and always.

2011, BRING IT!! ^,^W

I love you are just words.
You know you mean more. ^_^

*~}i{~*

Friday, January 7, 2011 at 6:12 AM , 2 Comments