In Zombieland. : (

I think the day started out to get me today.
As i type this, i have no idea why all my words are underlined.
Fuck it. Thats not the point of my post.

Results just came out and unfortunately enough,
I have fallen into a state of upset.
Honestly, i did have more faith in this exam.
I studied like shit for it, harder than before, or ever.
I just didnt think i would be squished like a bug despite all the effort.

Poop. I can't NOT swear now.
I always knew i wasn't the book smart type,
But SERIOUSLY?? WTF.
I don't get it, i don't get it, i don't freaking get it.

Its not like i don't care!
Or that i was slacking!!
Or that i miss classes!!!
I attended 98% of them!!
The other 2% was because i was lost, or didn't know.

God... Help me...I'm dying here...
Why is it like this??
Some subjects i just knew the answers!!
I did the best i could!!
Didn't give up till the very end!!
Beeswax. Am i seriously this dumb??
How should i study, hurhh??
How........................................

I tried everything!!
I tried highlighting all the important points...
I listen like a hawk in class except for maths, which i passed!!
I tried studying 2 weeks before the exam (which is pretty early)...
Nope, it still doesnt work.

I wonder why God made us unequal and uneven to one another.
Some friends study 2 or 1 day before the exam,
And poof, they get magical colourful results.
I just want to pass everything, is that really so hard??
For me it is.

I am getting convinced that academics is not what i was born to master.
I need to suffer and experience awful grinding and shit before something turns out "ok".
I dont think i can be taught how to study though...
Because no matter how hard i do, its useless.

So, this is what i intend to do.
If i proceed to UG,
I am going to TAKE IT EASY.
In the sense that i'm not going to fuss over exams anymore,
I'm not going to stress about it weeks before.
I'll just do frequent readings.
THAT is what i'm going to do.

Like daddy said, just get your degree and come out!
The real world is totally different and requires things differently!!
So, i can't wait to freaking graduate!!
I can't wait to show the world, blehhh!!
Street smart takes people places too you know!!

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....................
I just need to chill.
Chill.

Posted by zinrue

Tuesday, June 29, 2010 at 3:33 AM , 3 Comments

If you could ask George W. Bush one question what would it be?

I would ask him, "Why on earth are you still alive?? I thought you died in all the war you caused". O,O

*Hey guys!! Join formspring!! Its seriously fun!! You get to ask each other all sorts of questions and see answers too!! What a good way of getting to know one another more right?? Hahahaha!! Ask me something then!! Click on the link below!! ^_^ ENJOY~*

Ask me anything

Posted by zinrue

Monday, June 21, 2010 at 4:17 AM , 0 Comments

Jitters!! @,@

THATS RIGHT.
Thats exactly what you're seeing.
Everything is happening so fast...
I swear i could hear my heart beat pleading!!
Ohhh God...
Why does it have to be so soon??
I am literally nerve-wrecked!!!! @,@

The past two weeks were somewhat of a LIVING HELL. X)
Training never seemed tougher!!
Or maybe, i was just out of shape. :S
But suffering through a few agonising, pain-staking nights of:
Neck cramps, shoulder cramps, bicep + tricep cramps,
Core cramps, lower-back cramps, thigh cramps, calf cramps and
MENTAL CRAMPS XD...
I am finally going to face IT. @,@

Tuesday night (15/06/2010),
Please pray for me...!!!
Nothing is impossible!!
Remind myself,
It'll all be over in a days time!!
Just a day!!
Argggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
It can be done!!
The blood, sweat and sleepless nights...
I just want to be the one on the top!!
*fingers-crossed tightly reaching maximum numbness*

Cheer for me, people!! ^_^

exoh.

Posted by zinrue

Friday, June 11, 2010 at 8:05 AM , 2 Comments

What seemed like forever.

Its been close to a week since the word distance and holiday has parted us.
Honestly, the aching has started to seep in. : (
And all i would wish for sometimes in the day and night, was to see his face.
Just to look at it. Not even needing to touch it if thats what it took to see him in 3D.

Phonecalls and smses have been of help.
But i still couldnt believe how slow time passes when you miss someone.
It is unfair to want a person to miss another all 24/7 in time.
Goshh, spare each other some time for the loo why dontcha!! XD
Yet inevitably, the longing does affect the mood and efficiency rate of the person.
*Arhem. Does not want to mention examples here. Lols!! @,@*

Anyway, i was so glad to have been able to see him on Saturday.
And the word is FINALLY. X)
Since it felt like forever, i guess it would give good cause for some extra effort??
Hahahha!! The silly things you could do for your other half.
Others would drop their jaws at the sight of the change.
Lols!! But well, the point was, for him. : )

It was the first time you drove to me and picked me up!!

Boy, was i nervous!!
But later on, i heard from a little birdie that you were too!! :D
It made everything ever more sweeter. ^_^

The feeling of you looking at me, it was intense.
As if it was our first meeting, again. : ]

You made me smile so much that day,
My cheeks were sore. X]
But feeling your hand in mine,
The difficult week which seemed like two,
Evaporated into thin air within seconds. : )

Gently absorbing all the fresh atmosphere,
I couldn't help but notice,
You too had tiny habits that i found entertaining!! ;D

With you by my side, life seems easier than it is.
Your warmth, your care, your love,
Lets just linger in those moments,
Forever happy, forever fond. ^_^

Because there are many things in this lifetime that i learned to love.
One of them is you.
Every step, every effort taken to understand you better,
Has added more spice in my life.
Without realising,
Darling, you've become my favourite fairytale. ^_^
(5/6/2010)

exoh.

Posted by zinrue

Sunday, June 6, 2010 at 8:11 AM , 1 Comment

Boredom = Evilness

Lols!! I've never thought of relating boredom to evil. This only occurred to me minutes ago while browsing through facebook. X) My friend posted,

"Boredom Slowly Creeping in. I cant Help But wonder what i can do to Fend this Dark Evil away."

My first thought, INSPIRING. XD Always having this tiny tender love for philosophy and poetry (as you can see), I was drawn into deep thought. I finally came to a conclusion that YESSS, boredom is a problem!! And, HELL YEAH its evil!! XP

Imagine being hectic for what seems like a million years!! Then the next moment, you find yourself clueless with all the time in the world!! So much so that you panic and paranoia sneaks in, urging you to kill it. Kill what?? Kill whats so freaking lacking of this world - TIME. =,=

It might be foolish to even think about this notion so much as to want it. But time is of essence people. Its evil as it waits for no one. NO ONE. So before you start thinking,"Heyy... I'm just gonna slack around all day and stare at my toes from dusk till dawn", you better think, what am i missing out on here?? Whats this i'm doing?? Would you give away the privilege of having time in your hands to someone who has only limited time to live?? Would you?? : |

Theres just no looking back. Everything is crucial. Everything is precious. You might feel lost in the beginning... But i guess in a way, you could consider it a frictional job, whereby the transition of being passive to progressive requires time too. : ]

Don't get me wrong here. My definition of slacking isn't sleeping or watching tv... It simply means just doing things that aren't beneficial to your health, wealth and personal self. : ) So before you decide that your day will end in total boredom, perhaps picking up your favourite comic, or flicking to your favourite movie channel will provide you with some ounce of satisfaction?? Trust me, this works like a charm. ^_^

When people ask you now,"What are you gonna do during the holidays??" Never say,"Ohh... I don't know... Laze around all day and wait for a stack of entertainment to fall on my lap." Because then, you would probably seem like the biggest moron time is wasted on in this lifetime.

Cliche is not my style. Live life to the fullest is not something i want to blabber here as if i were a brilliant philosopher. Instead, ponder THIS:

LIVE your life. It can SAVE others. : ]

Theres never harm wishing, dreaming and feeling for what you want. No matter how minute or futile everything appears to be, every incy-wincy effort counts for something. ^_^

So to everyone out there who is so lucky to be having their holidays now, LIVE for life's sake. You only get one.

exoh.



Posted by zinrue

Thursday, June 3, 2010 at 7:29 AM , 0 Comments

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