Recently, i've been telling myself,
"Smile dear, smiling helps."
"Appreciate dear, you are loved."
"Enjoy dear, things could only get better."
It is true that at some point, things have gotten a bit better.
I wake up everyday with not much ache in my heart anymore...
I'm being surrounded by crazy people who pretend they are macho, but in fact, are really caring, funny and irritating. XD
I can laugh heartily and enjoy living each moment as everything seems to pass by really slowly.
I see things now quite differently, things i have not noticed before, although some shapes still appear the same to me and i'm still really blur and slow. @,@
I talk to people with more patience, with less judgment but more listening.
I quietly smile to myself every time i successfully avoid an argument, proud that i did not lose my temper.
All in all, i feel this gradual change in habit and moods rather pleasing. I think my parents are liking it too. XD
Although occasionally the sting still burns around the edges,
And the pain chills itself throughout my whole system,
And i struggle to compose my thoughts, emotions and heartbeat again,
I comfort myself by saying that at least it doesn't hurt as much as it used to.
At least i am brave enough to face myself, to understand time will heal all,
Even if there was no closure, no clarity, and not much understanding in between,
But i choose to believe that God is good and life will go on and will only get better, right?? : ]
Very recently i found out that absolution has finally come to a friend and her ex.
It involves me not, but as a bystander and supporter, in many ways i admire them and the closure they were able to achieve together.
Although it didn't work out with them, but at least they both know the reasons they couldn't be together.
The comfort was that they knew they both loved each other, but under complicated circumstances, they just couldn't be.
Yet, who said there can't be a happily ever after for both of them?
At the very least, they knew why it didn't work out.
They discussed about it and nothing had to be guessed.
Only after seeing this did i realise how important it is to have closure.
Closure being no loose ends, and no more room for wondering why.
I used to wish so much that i could have that.
To be able to discuss about it, say out every single feeling i still had, and finally face the truth without having to guess and wonder what if.
Unfortunately, there is a first for everything.
Perhaps i had to learn it the hard way this time, in order for me to not make the same mistake next. Hrmmmm... I suppose theres always a higher purpose to everything...
May this lesson help me remember and bear in mind always,
"Smile dear, smiling helps."
"Appreciate dear, you are loved."
"Enjoy dear, things could only get better."
It is true that at some point, things have gotten a bit better.
I wake up everyday with not much ache in my heart anymore...
I'm being surrounded by crazy people who pretend they are macho, but in fact, are really caring, funny and irritating. XD
I can laugh heartily and enjoy living each moment as everything seems to pass by really slowly.
I see things now quite differently, things i have not noticed before, although some shapes still appear the same to me and i'm still really blur and slow. @,@
I talk to people with more patience, with less judgment but more listening.
I quietly smile to myself every time i successfully avoid an argument, proud that i did not lose my temper.
All in all, i feel this gradual change in habit and moods rather pleasing. I think my parents are liking it too. XD
Although occasionally the sting still burns around the edges,
And the pain chills itself throughout my whole system,
And i struggle to compose my thoughts, emotions and heartbeat again,
I comfort myself by saying that at least it doesn't hurt as much as it used to.
At least i am brave enough to face myself, to understand time will heal all,
Even if there was no closure, no clarity, and not much understanding in between,
But i choose to believe that God is good and life will go on and will only get better, right?? : ]
Very recently i found out that absolution has finally come to a friend and her ex.
It involves me not, but as a bystander and supporter, in many ways i admire them and the closure they were able to achieve together.
Although it didn't work out with them, but at least they both know the reasons they couldn't be together.
The comfort was that they knew they both loved each other, but under complicated circumstances, they just couldn't be.
Yet, who said there can't be a happily ever after for both of them?
At the very least, they knew why it didn't work out.
They discussed about it and nothing had to be guessed.
Only after seeing this did i realise how important it is to have closure.
Closure being no loose ends, and no more room for wondering why.
I used to wish so much that i could have that.
To be able to discuss about it, say out every single feeling i still had, and finally face the truth without having to guess and wonder what if.
Unfortunately, there is a first for everything.
Perhaps i had to learn it the hard way this time, in order for me to not make the same mistake next. Hrmmmm... I suppose theres always a higher purpose to everything...
May this lesson help me remember and bear in mind always,
"Treat people nicer than necessary,
Because you never know what battles they are facing on their own everyday."
Smiling helps too!! ^_^
Because you never know what battles they are facing on their own everyday."
Smiling helps too!! ^_^*~}i{~*
