Drowning.
Stuck.
Worried.
Troubled.
The weather is not helping.
My mood is in turmoil.
My phone is broken.
But worst of all, i haven't spoken, much.
Not because i can't.
Its because i don't want to.
Is golf better entertainment than talking to me?
We haven't been in good terms for almost a week now?
What is wrong with you? What is wrong with me?!
You're so childish.
I can't believe you said that!
I HATE being controlled.
I HATE that you try.
I know you know that!
Yet you choose to ignore?
The more you do it,
The MORE i will rebel!
Do you NOT already know how i am?
Have you NOT understood why i am the way i am?
You assume!
And yes, that makes us both asses!
Why can't i voice out?
Is it not my right to be older and respected?
I hate you for now you little brat!
Don't speak to me ok! Don't even call!
I WILL NOT answer! XP
I'm hopeless.
I can't NOT care.
But when i do, you make me cry.
I hate succumbing to my emotions.
I hate feeling weak.
But who will listen?
My silence will taunt you.
I know you will be hurt.
But this is exactly what i will do.
I am tired of fighting.
I am tired of trying to explain.
You NEVER give me a chance.
I will pull through this.
I will learn to filter you out!
Blame me not for being angry and cold now.
I don't want to hurt anymore.
I have enough of worries.
I have enough to stress about.
But yes! I WILL CONTINUE SMILING.
These tears will not choke me anymore.
I am grateful yet i regret.
Why does this life have to be so complicated!!
I want my own life!!!
I want to be selfish for my own happiness!!!
I want to be appreciated...
I want to be trusted...
I am very very very tired....
Can i be as cheerful as today?
My energy is wearing out...
Will i be able to hide this pain?
Please don't ask me about this.
If you care about me, please don't ask me about this.
This is part of my life.
Looking simple, doesn't mean i really am.
Forgive me for being so harsh.
I needed to vent... I needed to release everything
So that i can be stronger to face tomorrow.
I feel dizzy.
Will i faint and fade into the clouds?
Will there be buzzing in my ears?
Will i be able to crawl out of all of this?
I must i must I MUST!!!
So don't ask me.
Just be my friend, and listen.
All i want is to be heard, not judged...
Stuck.
Worried.
Troubled.
The weather is not helping.
My mood is in turmoil.
My phone is broken.
But worst of all, i haven't spoken, much.
Not because i can't.
Its because i don't want to.
Is golf better entertainment than talking to me?
We haven't been in good terms for almost a week now?
What is wrong with you? What is wrong with me?!
You're so childish.
I can't believe you said that!
I HATE being controlled.
I HATE that you try.
I know you know that!
Yet you choose to ignore?
The more you do it,
The MORE i will rebel!
Do you NOT already know how i am?
Have you NOT understood why i am the way i am?
You assume!
And yes, that makes us both asses!
Why can't i voice out?
Is it not my right to be older and respected?
I hate you for now you little brat!
Don't speak to me ok! Don't even call!
I WILL NOT answer! XP
I'm hopeless.
I can't NOT care.
But when i do, you make me cry.
I hate succumbing to my emotions.
I hate feeling weak.
But who will listen?
My silence will taunt you.
I know you will be hurt.
But this is exactly what i will do.
I am tired of fighting.
I am tired of trying to explain.
You NEVER give me a chance.
I will pull through this.
I will learn to filter you out!
Blame me not for being angry and cold now.
I don't want to hurt anymore.
I have enough of worries.
I have enough to stress about.
But yes! I WILL CONTINUE SMILING.
These tears will not choke me anymore.
I am grateful yet i regret.
Why does this life have to be so complicated!!
I want my own life!!!
I want to be selfish for my own happiness!!!
I want to be appreciated...
I want to be trusted...
I am very very very tired....
Can i be as cheerful as today?
My energy is wearing out...
Will i be able to hide this pain?
Please don't ask me about this.
If you care about me, please don't ask me about this.
This is part of my life.
Looking simple, doesn't mean i really am.
Forgive me for being so harsh.
I needed to vent... I needed to release everything
So that i can be stronger to face tomorrow.
I feel dizzy.
Will i faint and fade into the clouds?
Will there be buzzing in my ears?
Will i be able to crawl out of all of this?
I must i must I MUST!!!
So don't ask me.
Just be my friend, and listen.
All i want is to be heard, not judged...
